Need, not want.

I really need to get the scholarship.

I need it so badly. I must work hard to get it.

I MUST get it...

No...It's not I want, it's I need.

To someone out there.

To be honest, not thinking anything is possible.

Have you got an experience that you didn't realize the time had passed so fast when you felt it was just...like one hour? And during that time, you don't really think anything except the thing that makes you busy till you lose awareness around the surrounding or even problems. Maybe not thinking all the time is impossible but at least for a moment, you forget about the cause of the stress. Got it? :) That's what I meant.

A walk into the past...

Leaving all behind, I was on my way back,

and my mind kept going back to the past.

You all made fun of me, thinking I'd gone crazy.

'So be it then. I don't care how you think of me.'

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I was walking into my memories.

And I saw you looking through my eyes.

It seemed like you were telling me something.

But somehow there was no sound coming.

I listened to my ragged breathing sound.

I'd felt nervous whenever you were around.

You were giving me something to fear.

Something that could even freeze my tears.

I started to fidget with my hair...

Where did this feeling come from?

'Wow, you were a real nightmare.'

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As I opened my eyes to the bright light,

I saw the reality back in sight.

I slowly released my breath.

Luckily, there was no trace of my past...

where I feel the formidable fear, the blissful pain,

Forever.

For no one in particular...

It's 12 midnight, in the middle of the dark.

And it's raining like it's never gonna stop.

I'm walking in the rain without an umbrella.

And right now, I feel like hell. Yeah, like hell.

After a short talk between you and me,

which didn't go well as it was supposed to be,

I've realized that I can never impress you.

'Cause I can't even live up to your expectations.

All the mean words and the unforgettable pain,

I just wish they'd be washed away with this pouring rain.

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Speak now.

Whatever you think, It was not me.

But somehow all the blames were on me.

I remember those hurtful words.

It's like a burning arrow, penetrating through

an invisible wall of my heart.

Back then, I didn't want you to know

that I was sad, but now I'm letting all go.

And right now, now I'm gonna speak out.

Revealing all the emotions I've kept till now.

And here I realize it was you all along.

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Under a lime tree

Lying down under a lime tree, I start to read a book.

When there are funny moments, I laugh.

When there are sad moments, I cry.

When the sun has gone down, I closed the book.

After stretching my arms, I start to walk down to my house.

I see my door broken and open.

I decide to stay outside near a park I like.

It is a cold day but I don't mind, not at all.

Lying down under a lime tree, I close and open my eyes.

I see a lot of stars in the dark sky.

I close my eyes again to sleep.

When I open my eyes, I can see clearly because of too much light.

I don't know if it is sunlight or moonlight.

Suddenly there is an angel in front of me, telling me that I am in Heaven.

"I see."

I feel tears coming out.

And I realize that I am crying.

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.

.

I am.......

Walking...alone.

You are walking down to the road that everyone had gone before.

You are a step away. A step behind. And you are all alone. And you felt something weird.

You asked me what kind of this feeling was. And I gave you an answer.

"It's the same feeling that you feel in these situation: When you have to smile even though you feel nothing inside, when you feel like you're walking alone even though there're many people around, when there's no one looking at you even though you are there. It's called loneliness."