Need, not want.

I really need to get the scholarship.

I need it so badly. I must work hard to get it.

I MUST get it...

No...It's not I want, it's I need.

To someone out there.

To be honest, not thinking anything is possible.

Have you got an experience that you didn't realize the time had passed so fast when you felt it was just...like one hour? And during that time, you don't really think anything except the thing that makes you busy till you lose awareness around the surrounding or even problems. Maybe not thinking all the time is impossible but at least for a moment, you forget about the cause of the stress. Got it? :) That's what I meant.

A walk into the past...

Leaving all behind, I was on my way back,

and my mind kept going back to the past.

You all made fun of me, thinking I'd gone crazy.

'So be it then. I don't care how you think of me.'

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I was walking into my memories.

And I saw you looking through my eyes.

It seemed like you were telling me something.

But somehow there was no sound coming.

I listened to my ragged breathing sound.

I'd felt nervous whenever you were around.

You were giving me something to fear.

Something that could even freeze my tears.

I started to fidget with my hair...

Where did this feeling come from?

'Wow, you were a real nightmare.'

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As I opened my eyes to the bright light,

I saw the reality back in sight.

I slowly released my breath.

Luckily, there was no trace of my past...

where I feel the formidable fear, the blissful pain,

Forever.

For no one in particular...

It's 12 midnight, in the middle of the dark.

And it's raining like it's never gonna stop.

I'm walking in the rain without an umbrella.

And right now, I feel like hell. Yeah, like hell.

After a short talk between you and me,

which didn't go well as it was supposed to be,

I've realized that I can never impress you.

'Cause I can't even live up to your expectations.

All the mean words and the unforgettable pain,

I just wish they'd be washed away with this pouring rain.

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Speak now.

Whatever you think, It was not me.

But somehow all the blames were on me.

I remember those hurtful words.

It's like a burning arrow, penetrating through

an invisible wall of my heart.

Back then, I didn't want you to know

that I was sad, but now I'm letting all go.

And right now, now I'm gonna speak out.

Revealing all the emotions I've kept till now.

And here I realize it was you all along.

OK, Secret Garden Again!!!

I really am in love with Secret Garden now! hahahahahahahahahahahaha~~~~!!!!!!!!

Under a lime tree

Lying down under a lime tree, I start to read a book.

When there are funny moments, I laugh.

When there are sad moments, I cry.

When the sun has gone down, I closed the book.

After stretching my arms, I start to walk down to my house.

I see my door broken and open.

I decide to stay outside near a park I like.

It is a cold day but I don't mind, not at all.

Lying down under a lime tree, I close and open my eyes.

I see a lot of stars in the dark sky.

I close my eyes again to sleep.

When I open my eyes, I can see clearly because of too much light.

I don't know if it is sunlight or moonlight.

Suddenly there is an angel in front of me, telling me that I am in Heaven.

"I see."

I feel tears coming out.

And I realize that I am crying.

.

.

.

I am.......

Walking...alone.

You are walking down to the road that everyone had gone before.

You are a step away. A step behind. And you are all alone. And you felt something weird.

You asked me what kind of this feeling was. And I gave you an answer.

"It's the same feeling that you feel in these situation: When you have to smile even though you feel nothing inside, when you feel like you're walking alone even though there're many people around, when there's no one looking at you even though you are there. It's called loneliness."

Quotation

다만 멀리 존재하므로 환상처럼 여겨지는 것들이 있다.

별들의 세계가 그러하다.

너무 아름다운 사람들이 자주 그러하듯

쉽사리 사라지고 만다.

그의 진심이 궁금해 읽은 책 속에서

내 마음을 오래 잡아두었던 구절이다.

이제야 깨닫는다.

그가 얼마나 아름다운 사람인지.

그래서 내게 얼마나 먼 사람인지.

그도 언젠가 사라질 것이다.

너무 아름다운 사람들이 자주 그러하듯.

- '시크릿가든' 중에서

Happy Christmas.

Although I don't really feel the Christmas spirit, I can't just stop wishing others, right?

So.............................HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!

시크릿가든 - 길라임

There's a new Korean drama that I fell in love with.

It's called Secret Garden. Today, I'm gonna introduce one of the characters from the drama.

She's a main character and very attractive one. Her name is Gil La Im (길라임).

She's very tough. Actually her style is quite boyish. Her job is very interesting.

She's a stunt woman. Anyway, see the pictures above. =D

Harry&Hermione all the way!

Because Harry and Hermione are suited.
Because they think on the same level.
Because Harry and Hermione move instinctively together.
Because these two admire each other.
Because they actually respect one another.
Because Harry and Hermione complement each other.
Because they can communicate without words.
Because Harry and Hermione have friendship, bravery and love.
Because they have caring, comfort, and chemistry.
Because Harry and Hermione both have hair problems.
Because these two have the same initials.
Because they are both the only child in their family.
Because they both know what it’s like coming from muggle upbringing.
Because they don’t need parallels, but James/Lily would approve.
Because Harry and Hermione strongly act like James and Lily.
Because Hermione made the Murtlap essence for Harry after his detention.
Because Hermione cancelled her skiing trip for Harry.
Because he dumped his entire bag of Galleons into the fountain thinking of her.
Because she did something she never did before and kissed him on the cheek.
Because Hermione gave Harry his first hug and his first kiss.
Because she brought him out of his room at Grimmauld Place.
Because Harry thought of Hermione with a grin.
Because her eyes filled with tears and she beamed at Harry.
Because she did this as Bill and Fleur declared their vows “bonded for life.”
Because Hermione wanted Harry to be a prefect with her.
Because she’s excited that Harry gets to use the Prefect’s Bathroom.
Because she brushed the top of his head and he closed his eyes at her touch.
Because she was the only one who noticed that Harry’s scar was hurting him.
Because she brought him toast and walked with him around the lake.
Because Hermione stayed with Harry when Ron walked out.
Because she went with him to Godric’s Hollow.
Because they polyjuiced into an old married couple holding hands.
Because Hermione conjured a wreath for Harry to place at his parents graves.
Because he catches her before she hits the forest floor.
Because Hermione gives Harry a hug that nearly knocks him flat.
Because time and time again Hermione flings herself at Harry.
Because Hermione always watches Harry’s matches.
Because she goes to all of his Quidditch matches even when they’re fighting.
Because her eyes were blood-shot from crying after Harry’s quidditch accident.
Because she saved Harry from Umbridge’s Cruciatus curse.
Because he saved her from Millicent Bulstrode’s headlock in the Duelling Club.
Because they always save one another when the other is in danger.
Because it was Hermione’s idea for Harry to lead Dumbledore’s Army.
Because Harry’s bleeding hand was wrapped in Hermione’s handkerchief.
Because they traveled back in time, connected by the infinity symbol.
Because they rode on the hippogriff, the symbol of love.
Because they sit alone in the common room when everyone else is in bed.
Because she was disappointed that Harry won’t stay up and knit with her.
Because Hermione thinks Harry is more fanciable than ever.
Because when she told him that, Harry felt the room grow hot.
Because Harry thinks Hermione is jaw-droppingly attractive.
Because she helps him prove the truth to the wizarding world and clear his name.
Because Hermione knew that Harry would never put his name in the goblet.
Because Hermione knows when Harry is lying.
Because Harry loves every present that Hermione gives him.
Because Harry thinks she is better than him.
Because he thinks highly of Hermione.
Because you always think highly of the person that you love.
Because he doesn’t want to disappoint Hermione with low scores.
Because Hermione knows Harry more than anyone else.
Because she knows more about him than he does.
Because Hermione knew all about Harry before she knew him.
Because she sees him as “just Harry” and not the “Boy-Who-Lived.”
Because Hermione calms Harry down.
Because Hermione is the only one willing to deal with an angry Harry.
Because she is also the only one that can properly put Harry in his place.
Because they are able to disagree without calling each other names.
Because they took steps closer to one another as they argued.
Because Harry still put Hermione first while he was with Ginny.
Because Hermione would risk everything for Harry even if she has doubts.
Because she’s always looking out for his heart and his best interests.
Because Harry wants to protect her and also has her best interest at heart.
Because she’s willing to risk their friendship to protect him.
Because Hermione is always willing to help Harry.
Because she’s also willing to break the rules for Harry.
Because Hermione always worries about Harry’s whereabouts.
Because Harry remembered her when no one else did.
Because Harry always has Hermione in his head whevever he is.
Because Harry needs Hermione badly.
Because they talk about each other to their crushes.
Because their dates have been jealous of the Harry/Hermione bond.
Because Harry cut his date with Cho short to meet Hermione.
Because in times of trouble, Harry and hermione reach out for each other.
Because when things get tough, they instinctively cling to each other.
Because a great wizard deserves the brightest witch.
Because Crookshanks loves Harry and not Ron.
Because Harry sides with Hermione over Ron in Half-Blood Prince.
Because Ron needed a book to do what Harry’s been doing subconsciously for six years.
Because “Oh Harry!” is more suitable in bed than “Honestly Ron!”
Because Hermione reminds Rowling of herself and Harry reminds her of her husband.
Because the HP movie producers and the WB constantly promote them.
Because even Regis Philbin, Jonathan Ross, & Steve Kloves wanted it to happen!
Because Hermione Potter sounds way better than Hermione Weasley.
Because their kids won’t look like Ronald McDonald.
Because this ship does not need crappy looking manipulated images.
Because Harry and Hermione make for a more romantic and realistic story.
Because the best things in life are rarely obvious.
Because real love is not a raging flame, but a calm breeze.
Because the best romances come from deep friendship.
Because true friendship is better than bitter diatribe.
Because we actually ship Harry and Hermione despite Emma and Dan.
Because we particularly don’t like getting hit by anvils.
Because who’d want Ginny Weasley when you can have Hermione Granger?
Because we’re not into Harry’s Oedipus complex.
Because our ship doesn’t need canon to sail.

Harry/Hermione is the only one, my OTP!

wow...

Wow, I'm posting very frequently these days.

Well, nowadays, I'm quite happy.

I don't know. I feel happier the more people I meet,

the more things to do. hmmm...maybe I'm a potential workaholic. =D

Anyway, I really need to to spend my time in studying.

Ok, Kim ah reum, 아자아자 파이팅! :)

A bit of regret

Ah.............................

I feel regretful a little bit right now.

I could've chosen another college.

I could've chosen another course.

I could've chosen another country.

I could've chosen another way to earn money.

Well, at least for now, I feel that things could've gone in a different way.

But life is like that, right? Always there will be something to regret...

And our responsibility is to take the best out of it, right? Right?

My drawings

I used to draw many things.

But mostly, I drew pictures of cartoon characters.

Sadly, I don't have them with me right now.

But there are a few pictures of my drawings.

Luckily, I saved them in my laptop.

Happy days are over.

Oookaaay. Finally, the happy days are over. (not completely though)

From now on, I must prepare for the final. T-T

Goodbye my dear friend, Drama!

Goodbye my best mate, Game!

T-T Goodbye for now!

Song Hye Kyo (송혜교)

This is Song Hye Kyo (송혜교), one of the famous South Korean actresses.

She's become well-known throughout the Asia by appearing as main

female characters in several hit dramas.

She's appeared in many dramas, movies, CFs, and so on.

She's considered to be one of the most beautiful celebrities in South Korea.

Currently, she's staying in China, preparing for an upcoming Chinese movie.

Emma Watson

This is my all-time favourite actress, Emma Watson.

Emma is very famous with a Harry Potter character, Hermione Granger.

Ever since the first movie of Harry Potter came out,

she has become very famous and

now she's known to be one of the most popular stars of the world.

Currently she's in US, studying at Brown University.

Already!

Wow...once again, I can't help but realize that time does pass very fast.

It's already November. Soon, it's going to be 2011!!

I wish I will be better this month than last month.

No, no. I'm gonna try to be better.

Study more than I used to do!

Enjoy my life to the fullest!

Do not just play games but also go out and take a walk, meet people!

I can do it.

I CAN DO IT!